Creative Block
Even though I love talking about Aisha and Nex, something frustrating happens when I start a post about them or a picture of them. I get overwhelmed. So many people hate this couple, so I feel like everything I make has to have an impact. It can’t just be good; it has to be meaningful and/or persuasive.
Granted, I’ve given up on my drawings. I know I’m not good enough to make stunning artwork yet. But everything else, especially my writing, has to stand out.
I don’t know why I feel that way. It’s not true. No matter how convincing my words are, the Aisha X Nex haters won’t listen to me. No matter how beautiful my artwork is, it’ll look like dog poop to them.
“Well, don’t focus on the haters. Focus on the fans.”
I don’t like “preaching to the choir,” so to speak. If I’m making things only Aisha X Nex fans can enjoy, that’s not a lot of people. And let’s be fair: Winx fans who draw (or write about) other characters and couples don’t have to cater to a specific segment of the fandom.
Also, I’m not the only one who worries about Aisha X Nex haters. Some fans even apologize for including this couple in their fanfics and fan art. They write disclaimers to defend the inclusion and/or declare whose side they’re on in the Aisha love war.
If people feel ashamed to even acknowledge Aisha and Nex as a couple, how am I supposed to just focus on the fans? The haters control the fandom. Subconsciously or not, they’ve made it a rule that Winx fans are supposed to hate this couple. If you like them, it’s you against everyone else.
A fan on Winx Wiki once told me I’m just “seeing things that aren’t there” when it comes to Nex. They made it clear that I’m an outsider. My thoughts about him are all fantasies, and what the majority of fans think about him is reality.
No one wants to feel isolated. That’s why those artists and writers write disclaimers: so they won’t lose the fandom’s approval. I think it’s also why other Aisha X Nex fans support the couple in secret.
Some people think Aisha X Nex fans want the fandom to worship this couple. I wish the fandom appreciated the unique aspects of this couple’s relationship — that “rich tapestry” I keep talking about. But as for “worshipping” these two, that’s not what I want.
I just want the fandom to support them and celebrate them as much as they support and celebrate the other canon couples. I want Aisha and Nex to be included without disclaimers.
But I digress.
Anyway, it’s hard to create Aisha X Nex content, especially posts. I’ve started several, but I keep editing them because I want them to be “perfect.” Maybe one day, I’ll feel comfortable writing about this couple without obsessing over every word.
i understand what you mean cause i am trying to make an upcoming 8 chapter arc of my Winx fanfic perfect
As I perfectionist, I can relate. It might be hard, but I’ll tell you: NEVER GIVE UP!
I too question sometimes if I should just join the Winx haters, spend money on Micrapulous Babybug merch and begin to trash Winx like they do so I can have millions of followers on Twitter agreeing with me on everything and sharing pictures of two teenagers fucking each other with their Halloween costumes off. But then I would betray myself and the things I love. Because I actually LOVE Winx. I LIVE for this franchise because I don’t have anything else to look forward to in this shithole universe. Winx is one of the very few good things that prevent me from going on a suicide rampage. I just can’t betray it, no matter how many haters there are. If I do, I’ll die. Not just on the inside, but completely as a living being. This franchise keeps me alive. I cannot allow myself to give up on it and join the majority of haters. Sure, it hurts seeing so much hatred for Winx Club but if I give up, those haters have won the war. And I just can’t let that happen. Because quitting is losing. Fighting might end up in a loss but there’s also a chance to win. And even IF you lose a fight, at least you gave it all, at least you took an honorable defeat.
What I’m trying to say is: If we take the easy approach and leave what we love behind, we become shells of ourselves. As much as it hurts, please continue fighting for what you believe in. Continue fighting for Nex and Layla/Aisha. Even if it’s just for you, even if it’s just for 5 people on this planet. Don’t take the easy way and quit. Because the easy way is often the wrong one. Don’t join the majority if you don’t believe what they do. If it means fighting against millions of people online, so be it! You see something in those two and I have to say, what you wrote about Ying and Yang makes sense.
Take some days off, then begin writing anew. Get a pet if you don’t own one and care about it (there is so much choice if you’re not a cat or dog person). Pets won’t disappoint you. They won’t hate you for liking Winx Club or for staying true to a fictional couple. They will never be as dumb and cruel as humans can be. They don’t care about your money or your inheritance. They care about you as a person. Pets are true friends. And if you die, they wanna die with you. That’s how much pets love their “owners” (I dislike the term but I don’t wanna complicate things in my long comment). Treat them with respect and they will never betray you. They’re more trustworthy than humans.
I think I’m going to take my advice, spend some more time with my dog, away from most websites and let the idiotic haters be. One day, their hatred for the Winx franchise will eat them up from the inside. Their hatred will weaken their heart so much so they’ll end up in hospital. Because hate does that to a person, as it is a strong, negative emotion. Those with hatred in their heart will one day succumb to it and die because of it (Trump -for example- might not even make it to his next election period, as he is full of hate…plus, he is over 70 and obese, so his heart might finally give up soon).
If writing about Nexisha makes you happy (and I think it does), then do it. I’ve spent almost two months writing an essay about the relationship between two Founding Fathers. I’ve never shown it to anyone and I don’t knoe ic I ever will, but writing it makes me happy, so I keep doing it for me. Please keep writing Nexisha stuff if it makes you happy, even if you decide to not post it online. We all need little things to keep us happy.
It does. Writing posts about Aisha and Nex, drawing them, imagining stories about them…it makes me extremely happy. But I hate feeling like I might as well keep that happiness to myself, since hardly anyone feels the same way.
I can’t create Aisha X Nex content for myself only. When you love something, you wanna enjoy it with other people. You want them to feel that happiness, too. Trying to keep it to yourself is like trying to put a lid on a geyser.
I’ve even told my dad about this couple, since he knew about my Una Di Noi Winx blog. He said I come alive and my eyes light up when I talk about them. If you knew me personally, you’d know I don’t act like that about just anything.
I bet you feel the same way about your essay. Writing it excites you, doesn’t it? Don’t you ever wish other people could read it? The thought of it probably scares you a little, but if talking about these two Founding Fathers makes you happy, I’m sure it hurts to keep all that information to yourself. Am I right?
Yeah… I see what you mean. At least, we can say that the Aisha/Nex fandom is growing! I see more and more people saying that yes, Nabu was great, but he’s gone and they accept Aisha with Nex. It makes me happy too. Anyway, if you write or draw anything, I’ll sure read it! I’m extremely excited about your fan novel Baby Steps!